Magic Mirror

What just happened

I am so confused. I have been hanging out with Cody for a whole month talking everyday for the most part and just yesterday I learned he has a girlfriend. So my thoughts are WHAT. I am more upset that talking about his ex placed more of an importance than his actual girlfriend. For some reason I am not angry at him, but just confused and partially insulted. Did he not tell me cause he thought I wouldn’t be friends with him, or because he legit did not think about it. Why is this such a thing, I’m not even mad as someone who liked him but as a friend. How does one not tell their friends about there girlfriend, how does one not think to mention her at all. I am angry for her, that would be so insulting to think that I had so little effect on my boyfriends life that he never thought to mention me. What?

How is that a thing, I suppose he could have just started dating her but I still don’t understand how thats a thing you just don’t mention. He wasn’t even the one who told me, it was his friend. I am so frustrated and also confused, nothing really makes sense with this.

I just have no clue right now,

Ruby the not so Wicked Witch

A change in the air

I have found myself feeling different these past few days, I am laughing and dancing and goofing around in a way I normally wouldn’t. Sarah has even mentioned my randomness and many have told me I need to drink less energy potions. But I know its because I finally feel happy again, fully gleefully happy! The dark days are for now behind me and I am actually smiling a lot. This is very much because of my friends, I spent a week in Tartarus with Zachery and Erik and when I came back I felt different. Then I have been spending time with Cody who constantly makes me laugh like an idiot! Then as usual Sarah and Anna have been the greatest, and with all of this together It helped. I am looking at the world in a different way, but it isn’t scary its peaceful. I don’t fall asleep with tears in my eyes, and I wake up optimistic of the day ahead.

I find myself creating magic again also, something I haven’t done in a very long time. I feel the change in the air, and it is clean and fresh! Looking ahead things may be bumpy but it will be full of laughter and friends! I cant ask for anything else!

More to come,

Ruby the not so Wicked Witch

Ella Enchanted

The stories of Ella enchanted show Fairytale creatures in a different light. The villain can be mortal and the creatures we have been told are mean and wicked are peaceful. That is how the real world works, not all that we are told actually is true. The giants in my world can be good or bad same with any other creature. The same goes with curses, one can know the  curse they posses but not know their ability to defeat it. These curses can destroy are life if we are unable to tell those around us that they exist.

These curses can also be the greatest gift one can posses as they give us the opportunity to learn more about ourselves and go on great adventures. This is what I have found with my life, as I am currently on an adventure of my own. Each day is filled with my own feat to work through my own demons. I am not alone on this journey as I am surrounded by friends such as Erik and Zachery who are fighting along side me.

This is a caution for all, never go on a quest alone! From a daring adventure to self discovery, always have a group of allies with you! There strength will build you up, even if you don’t completely understand. The closest allies will follow you anywhere without even knowing what they are heading into!

Keep those allies close as you battle through life.

More to come,

Ruby the not so Wicked Witch

When a friend is the best magic

So I am back in Tartarus, attempting to figure out some of the things in my life that have been troubling me. I haven’t talked much about the true issues in my life and have opted to discuss less troubling matters such as Cody and Cam as it makes it easier to write. I wish  I could truly explain the issues in my life as of recent but I myself have no clue as to what words could adequately describe my emotional state. So I am happy to report I am back with Erik and Zachery and hopefully one of them will have wise words to help me figure out my life. If not I know they will help me at least in the way of distraction as they are always there to make me laugh and smile, no matter what else is going on in my life!

I think I have had a change in attitude these past few days just because I knew I would be back with them! As well as because I have to report about Cody and Cam, I need the two most important men in my life to approve those I am possibly crushing on. They also need to help me figure out how delusional Sarah is in her assumption that they like me! But I am mostly excited for a day of adventure we have decided to embark on. The goal is to get 20 things off a checklist of “bucket list” items! These things involve us roaming around Tartarus and having some great laughs!

Well I suppose I should get back to reality instead of just writing about it!

More to come,

Ruby  the not so Wicked witch

A beast is just a beast

I just want to say one thing, the tale of beauty and the beast is not realistic. A beast is a beast, not a man cursed against his own will! He is not an innocent waiting for you to “fix him” and break his curse. He is and will always be the beast, unless he fixes the problem. And no girl should stick around locked away waiting for the day he chooses to be better. You may think you are changing him but lets be honest thats just you wishing for him to better, and that wish only makes you view him as better. Lets use a drastic example, if someone was to hit you, just because they don’t hit you the next day doesn’t change the fact they hit you the day before! You can sugar coat it all you want, but a beast is a beast. Yes sometimes we view a person negatively and then see the better side of them, but if someone needs to be “changed” for them to be the right person for you then they were never the right person.

I am the person that thinks that we need to love the positives and the negatives of a person, but not change the negative aspects of them. Yes we all want to be better for the person we love but if someone views my honesty and bluntness as a negative I am not changing that! Thats because I am aware that I can find someone who loves that about me even if they don’t like it all the time. We all have a beast in ourselves; we just need to find the person who doesn’t see us as a beast but sees the person we truly are. Why would you want to be with someone you have to fix? Why wouldn’t you want someone who can grow with you in a joint effort not someone who takes away from your needs? The world is set in a craze of stories were its ok if the guy courting you is not always nice or polite because you can change him. That needs too change, men and women need to learn about how important the treatment of others is, we can’t let those we have prospective relationships with treat us less than we deserve because we hope that one day it won’t be like that anymore, and that they will “learn”! How will they learn if you don’t tell them straight up that being treated like a prisoner or pet is not acceptable at the start!

Let those beasts know that you want more, let they know you are willing to go look for more, and then they can decide if being a beast is worth it. If they choose to be a beast then be happy you got out when you could!

More to come,

Ruby the not so Wicked witch

Not as bad as expected

So as stated I pulled an all nighter last night, and I am happy to report my day was not that bad. I am instead a happy bubbly person who stole ale from Anna at the school tavern, took a shot of potion with some guys and then went and took an exam! Not a suggested course of action but I will say that I didn’t have a mental break down when it came to the exam.

I hung out with Cody, Anna and Cole. Cole being Anna’s friend, and a very entertaining warlock. We just chilled at the tavern and had some fun, attempted to study but when beer is involved it doesn’t always work out. Then I got some advice from a lovely dwarf and dopey elvish man. Helping me figure out if I like Cody or not and suggesting based off the evidence if sarah is crazy in her thoughts on Cody liking me. Though I must say both Cody and Cam give me weird looks when I am with the other.

As of now I am chilling out in my chambers packing for my vacation to the land of tartarus which I leave for tomorrow! I am truly excited for that. I should get back to packing, I shall get back to you all tomorrow!

More to come,

Ruby the not so Wicked witch

All nighter

Midterms have taken over Camelot! You can see its affects on all the creatures enrolled at Camelot university. Many look as if they could pass out within minutes, and many look as if one wrong turn and they will be dropping out and moving back into their parents homes. I personally am counting down the days until I am done and on vacation which is exactly   1  days 18  hours 32  minutes from when I write this sentence. I can tell you I will not be sleeping much until the moment I step into the carriage that will take me to Tartarus! Right now I am stalling an all nighter, one which I can guaranty will leave me very irritable tomorrow! The only thing getting me through this is the fact I will be done my exams tomorrow and then Anna and me are going to have a wine night with her roommates! Then on Friday I just have to pack and have a meeting with AJ! I am 100% sure I will at some point find myself asleep on my laptop… I just hope its later than sooner so I can actually get work done!

So you can look forward to a very sassy post tomorrow on how stupid I am for doing this all nighter but know that as of this moment I am optimistic as I have enough energy potion to keep me up for 20 years if I was that insane. For now I just need to make it to 3 tomorrow and then I can go have a nap!

Wish me luck,

Ruby the not so Wicked Witch

P.s. I am not saying all nighters are a good thing for anyone but sometimes they are a necessity.