I have found myself feeling different these past few days, I am laughing and dancing and goofing around in a way I normally wouldn’t. Sarah has even mentioned my randomness and many have told me I need to drink less energy potions. But I know its because I finally feel happy again, fully gleefully happy! The dark days are for now behind me and I am actually smiling a lot. This is very much because of my friends, I spent a week in Tartarus with Zachery and Erik and when I came back I felt different. Then I have been spending time with Cody who constantly makes me laugh like an idiot! Then as usual Sarah and Anna have been the greatest, and with all of this together It helped. I am looking at the world in a different way, but it isn’t scary its peaceful. I don’t fall asleep with tears in my eyes, and I wake up optimistic of the day ahead.
I find myself creating magic again also, something I haven’t done in a very long time. I feel the change in the air, and it is clean and fresh! Looking ahead things may be bumpy but it will be full of laughter and friends! I cant ask for anything else!
More to come,
Ruby the not so Wicked Witch
So as stated I pulled an all nighter last night, and I am happy to report my day was not that bad. I am instead a happy bubbly person who stole ale from Anna at the school tavern, took a shot of potion with some guys and then went and took an exam! Not a suggested course of action but I will say that I didn’t have a mental break down when it came to the exam.
I hung out with Cody, Anna and Cole. Cole being Anna’s friend, and a very entertaining warlock. We just chilled at the tavern and had some fun, attempted to study but when beer is involved it doesn’t always work out. Then I got some advice from a lovely dwarf and dopey elvish man. Helping me figure out if I like Cody or not and suggesting based off the evidence if sarah is crazy in her thoughts on Cody liking me. Though I must say both Cody and Cam give me weird looks when I am with the other.
As of now I am chilling out in my chambers packing for my vacation to the land of tartarus which I leave for tomorrow! I am truly excited for that. I should get back to packing, I shall get back to you all tomorrow!
More to come,
Ruby the not so Wicked witch
“mind reader” aka a person who can supposedly discern what another person is thinking. (as a google search has told me)
Does anyone know of such a person, cause I could use some help! I am in a constant state of confusion when it comes to Cody and Cam! Sarah and Anna both seem to think these men like me, but I am at a loss. I normally have a knack for picking up on subtle cues about people but not with these guys. These guys are making me question all I know, and it is driving me insane. I have been content with the idea that I could never find someone who could change my world as fairytales and books describe. I would not find that mysterious person who has me question my world, and flip it around all at the same time! A person who would give me butterflies when he speaks to me, a person who can say the right thing to calm my anxiety without me openly saying I am freaking out.
I was content and then out of no where I find two guys who fit this description. At first I was angry and now I am just in a state of constant confusion. The moment I think my feelings for one have left, I see them and they say the right thing, the thing that makes my heart jump if only a little. I have to admit I know my feelings are not as intense and described they are only minuscule compared to others when they get these feelings, but the fact I have any makes me feel out of balance. I just want to know how to continue, actually need is a better word. I need advice, even a simple “this is normal” so I can find balance in this new world I have come to be placed within.
So for all who stumble upon this blog please give me advice, what should I do?
More to come,
The not so Wicked Witch
The night at the Tavern!
So for my twentieth birthday a group of friends (and my parents) went to a tavern in Camelot and celebrated. It was a great night full of fun and laughter. I was originally nervous (as discussed in an earlier post) but It turned into a great night! We were at the tavern for a few hours and then ended up at Vicky’s place. Sarah and Anna convinced me to take a muff dive in front of my parents. Scott created a fun mysterious atmosphere by trying to tell everyone he was dating Vicky. She did not quite enjoy that as much as I did. I got bought numerous drinks and shots that night, even by my parents. A group of us even ended up back at Vicky’s until four in the morning. Sarah and Cody ended up crashing at my place, much to madras’s annoyance in the morning. It was honestly one of the most fun evenings I have had in a long time. I was actually quite surprised by Cody that evening, from him coming in the first place to him staying all night. Scott is practically involve with him and Sarah literally wanted to date him, well until she found out I like him. It was a great night, even though the next morning I was not feeling as great. I can now say I had a birthday celebration that did not make me want to cringe at remembering! My parents even got me flowers!
I am just hoping this next year is filled with the same laughter and happy memories that my birthday was!
More to come,
The not so wicked witch
I am going to be incredibly blunt right now and say that I have been hit with a lifetime curse. This isn’t a simple thing that I can ignore or laugh at… It is very serious and quite harmful. I have been going to a elf for help, where she tries to dissipate the curses influence on my life, but it hasn’t been going too well. I see her weekly but I doubt I will actually be able to get myself out of this mess. This is the curse that kept me away for a few months, and it has come around again at full force. Its not even something my greatest friends can help me battle as none actually understand what is going on. No matter how many times you explain this to someone they will never truly understand unless they have studied these curses or actually have been cursed in some way resembling yours.
I suppose I should give it a shot though… I just feel so lost, I feel as if there is this whole in my chest where the essence of myself used to be, but it has been stolen. essentially I feel as if someone has ripped my soul out of my chest leaving me with no way to actually feel. This has left me with a fear of talking to my greatest ally Zachery… and that hurts me the most. How am I suppose to find myself when I cannot even summon enough courage to tell my Best Friend that there is something wrong. I currently sit in a room at the Camelot university where my main goal is to keep myself from crying and shaking as that all I have been able to do for the last hour. Thankfully Anna is here and making sure I am ok. Though even with an ally beside me feel as if I am trapped in the dark ages with no way to escape ….
Ruby the not so wicked witch
So Apparently princes do exist, and I am not referring to those with a special bloodline, but those with the traits of a true gentleman. Those men who are chivalrous, who truly represent themselves in a great way (hopefully without an alternative moment). I have met a few men, who in different ways embody this ideal, throughout the past few weeks! There is Mathew who I met at the academy Tavern only a few days ago, he is a really nice talkative guy. He happens to be friends with Anna, so he hung out with us for a while. During this time he was very kind to Anna and myself, bought us beers and talked to us. The most surprising thing was when we went to pay for our tabs the waitress told us he had! He wouldn’t even take credit for it when anna talked to him, someone truly kind and actually humble about it. To me this is bizarre I have not met many men who would do something so kind to a stranger, who I practically am to him.
I am not suggesting that to be a gentleman one has to pay a lot of money, he was a kind man before I knew he had paid the bill. He treated me as a friend when he had only known me for a minute, something that I am very unused to. I am also kind of jealous of that trait and wish I was able to make friends that easily and be that at ease with those I barely know. I suppose that is an issue for another day though!
more to come,
the not so wicked witch
Sorry I haven’t written much as of recently, I got into a bit of a funk. I was always tired and down, which led to me becoming sick. Though I am not on here to tell you how bad things have been, I am here to tell you how good things are getting. All It took was a little help from my friends, a trip to Tartarus, and a bit of self pampering and I feel like a new person. Anna and me travelled to my home town for the weekend and it was marvellous! I saw Zachery, Mary and Erik, along with my parents and brother. Spending those days at home made me so happy because I felt my inner magic return. My happiness, my smile, my laugh it seems like at least a month since I have laughed that much. I just had marvellous time, we went into the local tavern and got some drinks and good food and had a dandy old time. I got a pampering with my mother at one of the local nail salons, where we had happy fairies helping us relax and feel awesome. I got to help my father tend to are garden and even though I couldn’t do much as I only had heeled shoes it was fun! Then at the end of the weekend I got to watch Anna and her team play ringette and win!!! And the weirdest thing of all was that I, a person with no knowledge or previous enjoyment with sports, had an amazing time, and I know that it is all because of Anna. I cared because I knew she cared and now she has a permanent fan at all the home games to harass her!
I guess the point of all this is, the best magic is the magic that makes you smile and makes you feel alive. As well as it is important to have friends who can pull you out of that gutter and fill your spirits!
more to come,
The not so wicked witch