When a friend is the best magic

So I am back in Tartarus, attempting to figure out some of the things in my life that have been troubling me. I haven’t talked much about the true issues in my life and have opted to discuss less troubling matters such as Cody and Cam as it makes it easier to write. I wish  I could truly explain the issues in my life as of recent but I myself have no clue as to what words could adequately describe my emotional state. So I am happy to report I am back with Erik and Zachery and hopefully one of them will have wise words to help me figure out my life. If not I know they will help me at least in the way of distraction as they are always there to make me laugh and smile, no matter what else is going on in my life!

I think I have had a change in attitude these past few days just because I knew I would be back with them! As well as because I have to report about Cody and Cam, I need the two most important men in my life to approve those I am possibly crushing on. They also need to help me figure out how delusional Sarah is in her assumption that they like me! But I am mostly excited for a day of adventure we have decided to embark on. The goal is to get 20 things off a checklist of “bucket list” items! These things involve us roaming around Tartarus and having some great laughs!

Well I suppose I should get back to reality instead of just writing about it!

More to come,

Ruby  the not so Wicked witch

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Not as bad as expected

So as stated I pulled an all nighter last night, and I am happy to report my day was not that bad. I am instead a happy bubbly person who stole ale from Anna at the school tavern, took a shot of potion with some guys and then went and took an exam! Not a suggested course of action but I will say that I didn’t have a mental break down when it came to the exam.

I hung out with Cody, Anna and Cole. Cole being Anna’s friend, and a very entertaining warlock. We just chilled at the tavern and had some fun, attempted to study but when beer is involved it doesn’t always work out. Then I got some advice from a lovely dwarf and dopey elvish man. Helping me figure out if I like Cody or not and suggesting based off the evidence if sarah is crazy in her thoughts on Cody liking me. Though I must say both Cody and Cam give me weird looks when I am with the other.

As of now I am chilling out in my chambers packing for my vacation to the land of tartarus which I leave for tomorrow! I am truly excited for that. I should get back to packing, I shall get back to you all tomorrow!

More to come,

Ruby the not so Wicked witch

Notice: In need of a mind reader

“mind reader” aka a person who can supposedly discern what another person is thinking. (as a google search has told me)
Does anyone know of such a person, cause I could use some help! I am in a constant state of confusion when it comes to Cody and Cam! Sarah and Anna both seem to think these men like me, but I am at a loss. I normally have a knack for picking up on subtle cues about people but not with these guys. These guys are making me question all I know, and it is driving me insane. I have been content with the idea that I could never find someone who could change my world as fairytales and books describe. I would not find that mysterious person who has me question my world, and flip it around all at the same time! A person who would give me butterflies when he speaks to me, a person who can say the right thing to calm my anxiety without me openly saying I am freaking out.
I was content and then out of no where I find two guys who fit this description. At first I was angry and now I am just in a state of constant confusion. The moment I think my feelings for one have left, I see them and they say the right thing, the thing that makes my heart jump if only a little. I have to admit I know my feelings are not as intense and described they are only minuscule compared to others when they get these feelings, but the fact I have any makes me feel out of balance. I just want to know how to continue, actually need is a better word. I need advice, even a simple “this is normal” so I can find balance in this new world I have come to be placed within.
So for all who stumble upon this blog please give me advice, what should I do?
More to come,
The not so Wicked Witch

When Your thoughts are consumed

I am so confused and frustrated. I don’t know what is happening to me, I cannot seem to concentrate on anything I need to. My thoughts are consumed with feelings, and I am at a loss. I can barely think of the words to describe my situation now; all I know is that I have caught myself behaving differently than I normally do around these two guys. Sarah thinks I am crushing on both of these guys, but I don’t normally do that. I get intrigued by people I don’t understand and then once I do learn about them I get over it, not with these guys. The more I hang out with Cody the more intrigued I get, and the worst but best part is he actually has the ability to surprise me… It is annoying. And then there is Cam, and I barely know anything about him except I find myself excited when I see him and talk to him. There is the running theory that this is because when I see him he is working at the potions shop and I am getting my favourite drink, but I don’t think that is it. If I see him as I am walking by I feel weird. This is abnormal and annoying. I think the only person who is happy about this is Sarah because she finds it funny that I cannot figure these guys out and its causing me to act out of character.

Honestly I am having such a difficult time figuring them out that I couldn’t even write about their character as I don’t know it.  Which is good because of the fact that if I was to like a person I would want them to be someone fascinating and someone that I can be surprised by, but those traits also make me so frustrated. I cannot even describe the frustration I am feeling, some of it comes from the situation with them and some comes from the fact that I have noticed myself behaving in ways that I don’t understand. For example, I have been fumbling on things I shouldn’t (in front of a class even), talking a lot more than normal (which in my case is a very very large amount)! Trust me it is an intense amount of weirdness that I do not understand in any way. I know that anyone reading this will probably be sitting there thinking “its obvious you like someone, don’t make a big deal out of it!” well for me that is a big deal. I don’t have emotions like this, honestly I don’t care enough to have emotions like this. So I feel like I have the right to be this confused and frustrated.

 

Wish me luck,

The not so wicked witch