I am so confused. I have been hanging out with Cody for a whole month talking everyday for the most part and just yesterday I learned he has a girlfriend. So my thoughts are WHAT. I am more upset that talking about his ex placed more of an importance than his actual girlfriend. For some reason I am not angry at him, but just confused and partially insulted. Did he not tell me cause he thought I wouldn’t be friends with him, or because he legit did not think about it. Why is this such a thing, I’m not even mad as someone who liked him but as a friend. How does one not tell their friends about there girlfriend, how does one not think to mention her at all. I am angry for her, that would be so insulting to think that I had so little effect on my boyfriends life that he never thought to mention me. What?
How is that a thing, I suppose he could have just started dating her but I still don’t understand how thats a thing you just don’t mention. He wasn’t even the one who told me, it was his friend. I am so frustrated and also confused, nothing really makes sense with this.
I just have no clue right now,
Ruby the not so Wicked Witch
I am so confused and frustrated. I don’t know what is happening to me, I cannot seem to concentrate on anything I need to. My thoughts are consumed with feelings, and I am at a loss. I can barely think of the words to describe my situation now; all I know is that I have caught myself behaving differently than I normally do around these two guys. Sarah thinks I am crushing on both of these guys, but I don’t normally do that. I get intrigued by people I don’t understand and then once I do learn about them I get over it, not with these guys. The more I hang out with Cody the more intrigued I get, and the worst but best part is he actually has the ability to surprise me… It is annoying. And then there is Cam, and I barely know anything about him except I find myself excited when I see him and talk to him. There is the running theory that this is because when I see him he is working at the potions shop and I am getting my favourite drink, but I don’t think that is it. If I see him as I am walking by I feel weird. This is abnormal and annoying. I think the only person who is happy about this is Sarah because she finds it funny that I cannot figure these guys out and its causing me to act out of character.
Honestly I am having such a difficult time figuring them out that I couldn’t even write about their character as I don’t know it. Which is good because of the fact that if I was to like a person I would want them to be someone fascinating and someone that I can be surprised by, but those traits also make me so frustrated. I cannot even describe the frustration I am feeling, some of it comes from the situation with them and some comes from the fact that I have noticed myself behaving in ways that I don’t understand. For example, I have been fumbling on things I shouldn’t (in front of a class even), talking a lot more than normal (which in my case is a very very large amount)! Trust me it is an intense amount of weirdness that I do not understand in any way. I know that anyone reading this will probably be sitting there thinking “its obvious you like someone, don’t make a big deal out of it!” well for me that is a big deal. I don’t have emotions like this, honestly I don’t care enough to have emotions like this. So I feel like I have the right to be this confused and frustrated.
Wish me luck,
The not so wicked witch