Valentines Day

It is the time of the year when fairytale creatures of all variety feel the pull of love or the pull of loneliness. Some lose their battles and become consumed with one of them, others fight and win. I would like to think I am winning this battle, as I am not consumed with love (lust maybe) or loneliness! I know plenty that are fully consumed with the ideas brought up on valentines, while I know others who like me have no real commitment to the holiday. I know that I might be a hypocrite when my other posts about Cody and Cam are brought into light, but I am not really lonely, or looking for love. I am spending this day studying for an exam in a class were we look at the social behaviour of creatures, then tonight I am going to a movie with Sarah… and Cody. But with Sarah there it cannot be anything more than a group of friends seeing a bad movie together. It won’t be a day where I fantasize about a “prince charming” especially as I do not ever want to date a prince charming but that in itself is a whole other rant. It will be a day I spend with the people that don’t make me lonely, a day I spend with those who make me laugh and smile! I suggest you all spend this day the same way, even if you are single there is someone around who cares about you!

Optimistically ,

Ruby the not so Wicked Witch

Creatures of Camelot 2017

So last year I made a post discussing the many creatures of Camelot and now the list of relevant creatures has changed and I thought I would give you a bit of an update!

Anna- A cursed princess fighting her inner battle, a fight we all find ourselves in each day, hers curse is just a day to day challenge that effects her life in a larger manner, thought if you know her well you can see her inner beauty and passion shine through. (Allegiance is good)

Midra- A loving, stubborn, intellectual elf! She has her own inner battle that can be very destructive and that tends to be taken out on me at a moments notice but she leans to the light somewhat often.(Allegiance is very confusing)

Sarah- A mortal girl with a curiosity of the witch/wizard community, she finds herself stuck in a shell that she cannot break out of on her own but a want for more than she possesses of herself (allegiance appears good)

AJ- A fun loving elf with a love of music and and the Camelot community. He is a fun guy, but he also has a habit of falling into a pit of stress. As a side note he is also my boss. (allegiance appears good)

Stan- a loving dwarf, who spends much of his time listening to music from around the realms and studying the various creatures that live within them. He is always around to listen to my many questions of the social aspects of our society. (allegiance appears good)

Ally- Half fairy have good witch, and a surprising friend. Ally is a coworker at MGIC Fm, where she runs all the programs. She has been a great ally this past year and has made me feel very much at home. (allegiance is good)

Meg-Another good witch, who finds herself questioning her world. She like me has a need to know the stories of all around her, even if she has to search for the answers. (allegiance appears good)

Scott-  A Gargoyle seen to be lazy and evil by some, but he is truly a protector of those he cares about. He finds himself in a world were he is constantly questioned by all around him, friends and family included. Through this he finds himself viewed with mixed reactions as he tries to discover his true purpose.

Vicky- A mischievous pixie who loves to prank her friends and meet new strangers. She holds a strong confident front, but finds herself riddled with a lack of genuine confidence, hiding it within laughter and fast talking.

Curses

I am going to be incredibly blunt right now and say that I have been hit with a lifetime curse. This isn’t a simple thing that I can ignore or laugh at… It is very serious and quite harmful. I have been going to a elf for help, where she tries to dissipate the curses influence on my life, but it hasn’t been going too well. I see her weekly but I doubt I will actually be able to get myself out of this mess. This is the curse that kept me away for a few months, and it has come around again at full force. Its not even something my greatest friends can help me battle as none actually understand what is going on. No matter how many times you explain this to someone they will never truly understand unless they have studied these curses or actually have been cursed in some way resembling yours.

I suppose I should give it a shot though… I just feel so lost, I feel as if there is this whole in my chest where the essence of myself used to be, but it has been stolen. essentially I feel as if someone has ripped my soul out of my chest leaving me with no way to actually feel. This has left me with a fear of talking to my greatest ally Zachery… and that hurts me the most. How am I suppose to find myself when I cannot even summon enough courage to tell my Best Friend that there is something wrong. I currently sit in a room at the Camelot university where my main goal is to keep myself from crying and shaking as that all I have been able to do for the last hour. Thankfully Anna is here and making sure I am ok. Though even with an ally beside me feel as if I am trapped in the dark ages with no way to escape ….

Ruby the not so wicked witch

Celebration at the Tavern

This weekend is full of celebration, apparently. You see your lovely neighbourhood witch is turning twenty this Sunday. With that comes the apparent need to celebrate, one which I slightly understand but at the same time don’t. I understand wanting to spend time with your loved ones, but not the idea that one must get dressed up and go to a ball to drink. I personally enjoy just going to a tavern with close friends and having a drink or two. I even enjoy just doing random enjoyable things with friends. Though I don’t think my celebration will be exactly what I want, though Anna is trying very hard to make it so.

She has talked to one of the taverns in Camelot and has a table booked for Saturday night. We have told friends that they can come join and then go to a community ball if they would like but thankfully Anna has told me that I have no obligation to join. That she will take me home if I don’t want to go to the ball, which is such a relief. I am not really the biggest fan of balls, they just don’t seem to do much for me. I am always uncomfortable on the dance floor as you have groups of primitive warriors trying to “grind” on you, or you stand in a circle doing nothing. I usually end up outside smoking and talking to others like myself. Which I don’t really want to do this year.

With this fall into an unknown land, I have found things such as this to be very disliked and unwanted by myself. I would much prefer to be at home watching movies or studying instead of being at a ball.

Lets just hope this weekends festivities go well.

Wish me luck,

The not so Wicked Witch

When all you need is space

Im going to be perfectly honest, I am going insane in my living quarters. I have told you about my friend Midra before, well now she is my roommate and now she has gone insane. I just need space alone in our home sometimes, but she never seems to leave. I book time to myself to hang out alone, and she keeps coming back early. I never get to be alone to relax. I am either at the university in the library studying or working.

I have been going stir crazy, and trying to find a solution. Nothing seems to work though. I go away for a weekend and it seems to be worse when I get back. Sometimes space is just needed!!!! I don’t know what to do, all I know is that this is driving me crazy. This is just a huge stress to my life, I never get a chance to just chill out and relax. My body is tense and everything aches, I just want time to unwind.

Hopefully I am able to fix this situation

More to come,

The not so wicked witch

All it takes is a little bit of Magic

Sorry I haven’t written much as of recently, I got into a bit of a funk. I was always tired and down, which led to me becoming sick. Though I am not on here to tell you how bad things have been, I am here to tell you how good things are getting. All It took was a little help from my friends, a trip to Tartarus, and a bit of self pampering and I feel like a new person.  Anna and me travelled to my home town for the weekend and it was marvellous! I saw Zachery, Mary and Erik, along with my parents and brother. Spending those days at home made me so happy because I felt my inner magic return. My happiness, my smile, my laugh it seems like at least a month since I have laughed that much. I just had marvellous time, we went into the local tavern and got some drinks and good food and had a dandy old time. I got a pampering with my mother at one of the local nail salons, where we had happy fairies helping us relax and feel awesome. I got to help my father tend to are garden and even though I couldn’t do much as I only had heeled shoes it was fun! Then at the end of the weekend I got to watch Anna and her team play ringette and win!!! And the weirdest thing of all was that I, a person with no knowledge or previous enjoyment with sports, had an amazing time, and I know that it is all because of Anna. I cared because I knew she cared and now she has a permanent fan at all the home games to harass her!

I guess the point of all this is, the best magic is the magic that makes you smile and makes you feel alive. As well as it is important to have friends who can pull you out of that gutter and fill your spirits!

more to come,

The not so wicked witch