Feeling like cinderella

I am assuming I am not alone in once and a while feeling like a cinderella. The only difference here is it is my roommate and she is getting worse and worse. She is not even upfront about it, she just passive aggressively refuses to do any chores, even though she is home way more than myself. I can come home to only sleep for a whole week and then have her blame me for every mess in the apartment even though she is home everyday for a large portion of the time, making these messes. I legitimately come home, shower, sleep, get up and go to the university.  The worst part is if I do decide to come home early I am met with rudeness and anger. Midra has turned from a fun loving elf to one poisoned, whose heart is rotting and turning her into a dark elf more and more each day. Though I only have 9 weeks left with her approximately I find myself becoming effected by the poison, causing me to become angry and on edge daily. I am always tense and any time she speaks to me I react in a way I cannot control. I fight the urge to just play her passive aggressive games, or to get the chores done that need to. Some things have gotten very gross, while others have become easy to ignore. My only concern is that I will be stuck trying to juggle ALL of the household chores and my studies and my job, while she sits in front of a magic mirror watching her shows. I understand she has a lot on her plate as well but I believe that if she is the only one actually around to make a large mess she showed understand that she should take more of the cleaning responsibilities not drop all of them.

The most annoying part is she tells me she will do something and then doesn’t for two weeks and when I do it her first  response is “oh, I was going to do that!” I am just tired of her, every time I receive a message from her I cringe, her messages are practically always along the lines of “Cinderella do this” “what did you do to cause this?” “You need to get this done!”

I am not her servant and I am tired of being treated like one! I need to find a way to combat this horrible behaviour, I no longer am content to just ignore her!

More to come,
The not so Wicked Witch

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The calm that comes before the storm

I have always head people say that there is always this weird sense of calm that comes before a huge storm, but I don’t believe it. Storms never come out of no where, the thing is most people ignore the signs, before a storm comes heading their way, just like fights! Most people want to believe the best, so they ignore the small things until something happens and the world can’t control the pain and the anger going through them. I`m not like most people, I don’t ignore the little things. I don’t let things build up… I tear them down. Except with those I care about… because those are the ones I fear to lose or know won’t go.

My brother Mike is lying to me, we made an agreement one I take seriously! It was working well at first, but I very soon came to realize that the moment he thought I wouldn’t notice he went back on it. Well I noticed, I have noticed every night and everyday that he breaks our agreement. The specifics of are agreement are not important, whats important is that he lied, and continues to lie. He looks at me with a smug smile as if he has pulled the wool over my eyes, he has no idea how much I know. I have already talked about how my friends say I have an uncanny ability when it comes to figuring things out, this is just one of those times. I am not even mad anymore just hurt. He lied and even if I go up to him and tell him I know he will still lie.

I am huge on trust, If I cannot trust those around me how am I able to be around them? I don’t even have respect for him anymore. I’ve called my brother a lazy troll as a joke before but now he truly is a troll, he is so stupid as to think he has gotten away with lying and so dumb as to try to.

For those who try to hide something from others and for those who think there is a calm before the storm I urge you to look around, I guarantee there are signs and someone else has caught them! Nothing comes without a warning first, the goal is to be smart enough to actually see it and brave enough to understand what it means when you do.

More to come,

Ruby the not so wicked witch!