Curses

I am going to be incredibly blunt right now and say that I have been hit with a lifetime curse. This isn’t a simple thing that I can ignore or laugh at… It is very serious and quite harmful. I have been going to a elf for help, where she tries to dissipate the curses influence on my life, but it hasn’t been going too well. I see her weekly but I doubt I will actually be able to get myself out of this mess. This is the curse that kept me away for a few months, and it has come around again at full force. Its not even something my greatest friends can help me battle as none actually understand what is going on. No matter how many times you explain this to someone they will never truly understand unless they have studied these curses or actually have been cursed in some way resembling yours.

I suppose I should give it a shot though… I just feel so lost, I feel as if there is this whole in my chest where the essence of myself used to be, but it has been stolen. essentially I feel as if someone has ripped my soul out of my chest leaving me with no way to actually feel. This has left me with a fear of talking to my greatest ally Zachery… and that hurts me the most. How am I suppose to find myself when I cannot even summon enough courage to tell my Best Friend that there is something wrong. I currently sit in a room at the Camelot university where my main goal is to keep myself from crying and shaking as that all I have been able to do for the last hour. Thankfully Anna is here and making sure I am ok. Though even with an ally beside me feel as if I am trapped in the dark ages with no way to escape ….

Ruby the not so wicked witch

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Falling Down the Rabbit Hole

My world has turned into a insane version of itself, with mad hatters, evil queens and many more creatures of weird origins. I don’t know what has happened but up seems to be down and down, up. When I walk around Camelot I feel as if I am out of place, nothing is as it was before and every turn has a new thing to see. This change could be seen as good to some, but for me it is dangerous. I don’t look at everything as a new adventure I look upon it as a possible danger. If anything I don’t feel like myself here. I feel like I’m trapped in a bizarre dream with no way of breaking out.

I need to find a way to break through this world and make it back to mine before its too late. Im walking through familiar halls, with faces I no longer recognize. Camelot University is no longer my safe haven in this world, it is turning into a chaotic mess. My big mystery for now is if It is me who has changed or is it Camelot. There are plenty of people here I still hang onto but it is no longer the same. Everything is a mess, and I don’t know where I stand with anyone. I just hope I can battle this feeling long enough to make it through the semester.

More to come,

The Not So Wicked Witch

When all you need is space

Im going to be perfectly honest, I am going insane in my living quarters. I have told you about my friend Midra before, well now she is my roommate and now she has gone insane. I just need space alone in our home sometimes, but she never seems to leave. I book time to myself to hang out alone, and she keeps coming back early. I never get to be alone to relax. I am either at the university in the library studying or working.

I have been going stir crazy, and trying to find a solution. Nothing seems to work though. I go away for a weekend and it seems to be worse when I get back. Sometimes space is just needed!!!! I don’t know what to do, all I know is that this is driving me crazy. This is just a huge stress to my life, I never get a chance to just chill out and relax. My body is tense and everything aches, I just want time to unwind.

Hopefully I am able to fix this situation

More to come,

The not so wicked witch

Demons

Demons have been present in almost all recognized religions. Many believe them to be used as stories to scare children into behaving, and many use them to help deal with the pain of the world. Even here in Camelot demons are a present fear, but for most they are inner demons. These demons represent their fears, past and much more. And in recent days my personal demons have become a large presence in my life. My demons are very specific though and cause quite a bit of distress. These Demons are the cause of my long absence from this site. They have been crippling, intense and darkening most areas of my life.

Though I am now prepared for battle with both sword and shield in hand. And If I fail Zachery is only a letter away.

More to come,

The not so wicked witch