Shapeshifter have become a reality to me, mostly in regards to those I like. Because of this I am now hesitant to allow myself to truly hold feelings for another person. I am just scared that my set perception of them will yet again be so off, and that I will be ignoring the true aspects of their lives. This idea might seem very out there but it is true that I am indeed scared of the same thing happening again.
The reason I mention this is there is this man I have found myself drawn to, in a way I am not used to and it scares me. He is like not like the men I normally find myself drawn to, one because he seems to be an actually nice person, not just to me but to others. The fact that he is so different than anyone I really know scares me, yet intrigues me. Mostly because I don’t know much about him but I know there is something that makes me want to know more. Also he works at one of the schools potion shops, and supplies me with my constant need for energy inducing potions. If I make things super uncomfortable with him I know I will lose the want to go there because of it. So I am stuck on what to do. Do I take a leap and see about maybe hanging out with him, or do I act like a scared person and avoid it. See I am not as confident as I used to be with men as my ex’s have messed it up.
Lets hope I can make a decision soon… or at least that something forces me to.
More to come,
The Not So Wicked Witch
I have come into a large dilemma, starting with me dating a shape shifter and ending with me and a prince having a spell driven moment. It started with my ex showing his true form, by cheating on me. We had been together for a few months and he was a day away from meeting those closest to me, but I came to his chambers to find another women within them. Then as a way to make me realize that I needed to date a nice man, mary chose to try to use her magic and get me are friend Liam together. He is a tradesman with a great heart and I have always been fond of him, but never could think more of it because he is Zachary’s greatest Ally and Friend. Mary’s efforts worked in some manner and got Liam and me to kiss, in an intoxicated state of truth or dare though. Then there is Richard, a charming warrior in a battle for good, a man who indeed has deep feelings for me. I am just unsure as to my feelings for him, though this did not stop us from having a lust induced moment of weakness. If it were not for my magic mirrors insistent ringing we would have lost ourselves completely.
I am confused as I may still have feelings for my ex, along with liam and possibly Richard. I am lost in a world of what ifs and however’s, worst of all I am not even planning on staying in tartarus for the entire summer. Zachery and his family are taking me to their summer home for over a week and then when I return I plan on packing up and heading out, with only a small chance of me coming back for a week to work a few more shifts. It is not fair to them to pursue these feelings when I plan on leaving for Camelot so soon, and its not fair to put me through the pain of getting attached.
Why does this have to happen now..?
More to come,
Ruby the not so wicked witch