So I am back in Tartarus, attempting to figure out some of the things in my life that have been troubling me. I haven’t talked much about the true issues in my life and have opted to discuss less troubling matters such as Cody and Cam as it makes it easier to write. I wish I could truly explain the issues in my life as of recent but I myself have no clue as to what words could adequately describe my emotional state. So I am happy to report I am back with Erik and Zachery and hopefully one of them will have wise words to help me figure out my life. If not I know they will help me at least in the way of distraction as they are always there to make me laugh and smile, no matter what else is going on in my life!
I think I have had a change in attitude these past few days just because I knew I would be back with them! As well as because I have to report about Cody and Cam, I need the two most important men in my life to approve those I am possibly crushing on. They also need to help me figure out how delusional Sarah is in her assumption that they like me! But I am mostly excited for a day of adventure we have decided to embark on. The goal is to get 20 things off a checklist of “bucket list” items! These things involve us roaming around Tartarus and having some great laughs!
Well I suppose I should get back to reality instead of just writing about it!
More to come,
Ruby the not so Wicked witch
So as stated I pulled an all nighter last night, and I am happy to report my day was not that bad. I am instead a happy bubbly person who stole ale from Anna at the school tavern, took a shot of potion with some guys and then went and took an exam! Not a suggested course of action but I will say that I didn’t have a mental break down when it came to the exam.
I hung out with Cody, Anna and Cole. Cole being Anna’s friend, and a very entertaining warlock. We just chilled at the tavern and had some fun, attempted to study but when beer is involved it doesn’t always work out. Then I got some advice from a lovely dwarf and dopey elvish man. Helping me figure out if I like Cody or not and suggesting based off the evidence if sarah is crazy in her thoughts on Cody liking me. Though I must say both Cody and Cam give me weird looks when I am with the other.
As of now I am chilling out in my chambers packing for my vacation to the land of tartarus which I leave for tomorrow! I am truly excited for that. I should get back to packing, I shall get back to you all tomorrow!
More to come,
Ruby the not so Wicked witch
Sorry I haven’t written much as of recently, I got into a bit of a funk. I was always tired and down, which led to me becoming sick. Though I am not on here to tell you how bad things have been, I am here to tell you how good things are getting. All It took was a little help from my friends, a trip to Tartarus, and a bit of self pampering and I feel like a new person. Anna and me travelled to my home town for the weekend and it was marvellous! I saw Zachery, Mary and Erik, along with my parents and brother. Spending those days at home made me so happy because I felt my inner magic return. My happiness, my smile, my laugh it seems like at least a month since I have laughed that much. I just had marvellous time, we went into the local tavern and got some drinks and good food and had a dandy old time. I got a pampering with my mother at one of the local nail salons, where we had happy fairies helping us relax and feel awesome. I got to help my father tend to are garden and even though I couldn’t do much as I only had heeled shoes it was fun! Then at the end of the weekend I got to watch Anna and her team play ringette and win!!! And the weirdest thing of all was that I, a person with no knowledge or previous enjoyment with sports, had an amazing time, and I know that it is all because of Anna. I cared because I knew she cared and now she has a permanent fan at all the home games to harass her!
I guess the point of all this is, the best magic is the magic that makes you smile and makes you feel alive. As well as it is important to have friends who can pull you out of that gutter and fill your spirits!
more to come,
The not so wicked witch
I have come into a large dilemma, starting with me dating a shape shifter and ending with me and a prince having a spell driven moment. It started with my ex showing his true form, by cheating on me. We had been together for a few months and he was a day away from meeting those closest to me, but I came to his chambers to find another women within them. Then as a way to make me realize that I needed to date a nice man, mary chose to try to use her magic and get me are friend Liam together. He is a tradesman with a great heart and I have always been fond of him, but never could think more of it because he is Zachary’s greatest Ally and Friend. Mary’s efforts worked in some manner and got Liam and me to kiss, in an intoxicated state of truth or dare though. Then there is Richard, a charming warrior in a battle for good, a man who indeed has deep feelings for me. I am just unsure as to my feelings for him, though this did not stop us from having a lust induced moment of weakness. If it were not for my magic mirrors insistent ringing we would have lost ourselves completely.
I am confused as I may still have feelings for my ex, along with liam and possibly Richard. I am lost in a world of what ifs and however’s, worst of all I am not even planning on staying in tartarus for the entire summer. Zachery and his family are taking me to their summer home for over a week and then when I return I plan on packing up and heading out, with only a small chance of me coming back for a week to work a few more shifts. It is not fair to them to pursue these feelings when I plan on leaving for Camelot so soon, and its not fair to put me through the pain of getting attached.
Why does this have to happen now..?
More to come,
Ruby the not so wicked witch
I have always head people say that there is always this weird sense of calm that comes before a huge storm, but I don’t believe it. Storms never come out of no where, the thing is most people ignore the signs, before a storm comes heading their way, just like fights! Most people want to believe the best, so they ignore the small things until something happens and the world can’t control the pain and the anger going through them. I`m not like most people, I don’t ignore the little things. I don’t let things build up… I tear them down. Except with those I care about… because those are the ones I fear to lose or know won’t go.
My brother Mike is lying to me, we made an agreement one I take seriously! It was working well at first, but I very soon came to realize that the moment he thought I wouldn’t notice he went back on it. Well I noticed, I have noticed every night and everyday that he breaks our agreement. The specifics of are agreement are not important, whats important is that he lied, and continues to lie. He looks at me with a smug smile as if he has pulled the wool over my eyes, he has no idea how much I know. I have already talked about how my friends say I have an uncanny ability when it comes to figuring things out, this is just one of those times. I am not even mad anymore just hurt. He lied and even if I go up to him and tell him I know he will still lie.
I am huge on trust, If I cannot trust those around me how am I able to be around them? I don’t even have respect for him anymore. I’ve called my brother a lazy troll as a joke before but now he truly is a troll, he is so stupid as to think he has gotten away with lying and so dumb as to try to.
For those who try to hide something from others and for those who think there is a calm before the storm I urge you to look around, I guarantee there are signs and someone else has caught them! Nothing comes without a warning first, the goal is to be smart enough to actually see it and brave enough to understand what it means when you do.
More to come,
Ruby the not so wicked witch!
It is that time of year where all the fairytale creatures of Camelot travel to their home towns and spend the summer season with there families, packs and etc. I have travelled away from all my newly formed friends and gone to Tartarus. Yes, It is the name of hell In greek mythology,there is a reason for this. As it was my personal hell for the past 18 some years, now it seems to have become my safe haven. I have run from all the wicked that started to rule over my life in Camelot, and now have found a sanctuary in my friends and family. Though even hours away from those who vexed me and they still have a hold on my life. Thats the joy of technology, no one is ever far away. It is like the great magics of the world, It can be used for good or evil, depending on the wielder.
I guess no matter how far away your problems seem they can catch up to you. At least I can say I have hidden well from Nate (aka a big bad wolf), in his numerous attempts to contact me. In my own way I have even used my inner powers to triumph in the waging war against those who seek to destroy and hurt me. Lets just hope this summer gives me time to build my strength and truly defeat them next term.
More to come,
Ruby the not so Wicked Witch