A change in the air

I have found myself feeling different these past few days, I am laughing and dancing and goofing around in a way I normally wouldn’t. Sarah has even mentioned my randomness and many have told me I need to drink less energy potions. But I know its because I finally feel happy again, fully gleefully happy! The dark days are for now behind me and I am actually smiling a lot. This is very much because of my friends, I spent a week in Tartarus with Zachery and Erik and when I came back I felt different. Then I have been spending time with Cody who constantly makes me laugh like an idiot! Then as usual Sarah and Anna have been the greatest, and with all of this together It helped. I am looking at the world in a different way, but it isn’t scary its peaceful. I don’t fall asleep with tears in my eyes, and I wake up optimistic of the day ahead.

I find myself creating magic again also, something I haven’t done in a very long time. I feel the change in the air, and it is clean and fresh! Looking ahead things may be bumpy but it will be full of laughter and friends! I cant ask for anything else!

More to come,

Ruby the not so Wicked Witch

Ella Enchanted

The stories of Ella enchanted show Fairytale creatures in a different light. The villain can be mortal and the creatures we have been told are mean and wicked are peaceful. That is how the real world works, not all that we are told actually is true. The giants in my world can be good or bad same with any other creature. The same goes with curses, one can know the  curse they posses but not know their ability to defeat it. These curses can destroy are life if we are unable to tell those around us that they exist.

These curses can also be the greatest gift one can posses as they give us the opportunity to learn more about ourselves and go on great adventures. This is what I have found with my life, as I am currently on an adventure of my own. Each day is filled with my own feat to work through my own demons. I am not alone on this journey as I am surrounded by friends such as Erik and Zachery who are fighting along side me.

This is a caution for all, never go on a quest alone! From a daring adventure to self discovery, always have a group of allies with you! There strength will build you up, even if you don’t completely understand. The closest allies will follow you anywhere without even knowing what they are heading into!

Keep those allies close as you battle through life.

More to come,

Ruby the not so Wicked Witch

When a friend is the best magic

So I am back in Tartarus, attempting to figure out some of the things in my life that have been troubling me. I haven’t talked much about the true issues in my life and have opted to discuss less troubling matters such as Cody and Cam as it makes it easier to write. I wish  I could truly explain the issues in my life as of recent but I myself have no clue as to what words could adequately describe my emotional state. So I am happy to report I am back with Erik and Zachery and hopefully one of them will have wise words to help me figure out my life. If not I know they will help me at least in the way of distraction as they are always there to make me laugh and smile, no matter what else is going on in my life!

I think I have had a change in attitude these past few days just because I knew I would be back with them! As well as because I have to report about Cody and Cam, I need the two most important men in my life to approve those I am possibly crushing on. They also need to help me figure out how delusional Sarah is in her assumption that they like me! But I am mostly excited for a day of adventure we have decided to embark on. The goal is to get 20 things off a checklist of “bucket list” items! These things involve us roaming around Tartarus and having some great laughs!

Well I suppose I should get back to reality instead of just writing about it!

More to come,

Ruby  the not so Wicked witch

Curses

I am going to be incredibly blunt right now and say that I have been hit with a lifetime curse. This isn’t a simple thing that I can ignore or laugh at… It is very serious and quite harmful. I have been going to a elf for help, where she tries to dissipate the curses influence on my life, but it hasn’t been going too well. I see her weekly but I doubt I will actually be able to get myself out of this mess. This is the curse that kept me away for a few months, and it has come around again at full force. Its not even something my greatest friends can help me battle as none actually understand what is going on. No matter how many times you explain this to someone they will never truly understand unless they have studied these curses or actually have been cursed in some way resembling yours.

I suppose I should give it a shot though… I just feel so lost, I feel as if there is this whole in my chest where the essence of myself used to be, but it has been stolen. essentially I feel as if someone has ripped my soul out of my chest leaving me with no way to actually feel. This has left me with a fear of talking to my greatest ally Zachery… and that hurts me the most. How am I suppose to find myself when I cannot even summon enough courage to tell my Best Friend that there is something wrong. I currently sit in a room at the Camelot university where my main goal is to keep myself from crying and shaking as that all I have been able to do for the last hour. Thankfully Anna is here and making sure I am ok. Though even with an ally beside me feel as if I am trapped in the dark ages with no way to escape ….

Ruby the not so wicked witch

Demons

Demons have been present in almost all recognized religions. Many believe them to be used as stories to scare children into behaving, and many use them to help deal with the pain of the world. Even here in Camelot demons are a present fear, but for most they are inner demons. These demons represent their fears, past and much more. And in recent days my personal demons have become a large presence in my life. My demons are very specific though and cause quite a bit of distress. These Demons are the cause of my long absence from this site. They have been crippling, intense and darkening most areas of my life.

Though I am now prepared for battle with both sword and shield in hand. And If I fail Zachery is only a letter away.

More to come,

The not so wicked witch

All it takes is a little bit of Magic

Sorry I haven’t written much as of recently, I got into a bit of a funk. I was always tired and down, which led to me becoming sick. Though I am not on here to tell you how bad things have been, I am here to tell you how good things are getting. All It took was a little help from my friends, a trip to Tartarus, and a bit of self pampering and I feel like a new person.  Anna and me travelled to my home town for the weekend and it was marvellous! I saw Zachery, Mary and Erik, along with my parents and brother. Spending those days at home made me so happy because I felt my inner magic return. My happiness, my smile, my laugh it seems like at least a month since I have laughed that much. I just had marvellous time, we went into the local tavern and got some drinks and good food and had a dandy old time. I got a pampering with my mother at one of the local nail salons, where we had happy fairies helping us relax and feel awesome. I got to help my father tend to are garden and even though I couldn’t do much as I only had heeled shoes it was fun! Then at the end of the weekend I got to watch Anna and her team play ringette and win!!! And the weirdest thing of all was that I, a person with no knowledge or previous enjoyment with sports, had an amazing time, and I know that it is all because of Anna. I cared because I knew she cared and now she has a permanent fan at all the home games to harass her!

I guess the point of all this is, the best magic is the magic that makes you smile and makes you feel alive. As well as it is important to have friends who can pull you out of that gutter and fill your spirits!

more to come,

The not so wicked witch

Once upon a time…

This is not just any tale this is the story of one of my greatest allies Zachery!

He is a strong but Grumpy Dwarf, always bickering with someone just so he can bicker. We are a lot alike, except I’m more adjusted to human life.  He behaves as a cave man at times sitting in front of a magic mirror for hours making imaginary characters fight for entertainment, although he would fit in well with the elvish community because of his lust for new information.

We met in junior high, when I had transferred from an all girls academy to my local academy. It was smaller than  I was used to but it made it easier to spot people to talk to. I am going to be completely honest and say I have no recognition of when we actually met, I only remember the annoying encounters that followed. Needless to say we were not close at all in junior high, but now I consider him my best friend.

It took one lovely elf/pixie hybrid to bring us together, or more Zachery’s attraction to her. Her name is Katherine, and the two of us where inseparable in high school. We met the first day of school and without her I would not have become close with any of my best friends now. It became clear very quickly that Zachery and his best friend at the time Cole both liked her, and I was on third wheel duty to relieve the pressure from her. It was a tedious task that I almost regret if it didn’t lead to my mother coming into our schools cafeteria during Zachery’s and my spare period and giving him a lecture on treating Katherine well.

We soon became more friends than acquaintances, and while that was happening Katherine and Cole became and Item. It was than that Zachery and me truly became friends, it seems like being on the same end of our friends arguments was a bonding moment. I can remember the first time we actually hung out alone, besides me bumming rides off him from school. It was two summers ago and I was making the food for a friends birthday celebration being held at my house, Mary originally came over to help but it turned out so horribly I called it round 1 and called Zachery to help for round 2. I don’t even think he came to the party, yet he most definitely was the greatest help with helping. We bickered less than we had ever before, and we both bonded over having to listen to our friends talk about there fighting.

Ever sense then we have continued to grow our friendship, through fights and bickering, we made it to this point. Aka the point were I annoy him every time I have an issue, but he always picks up or calls me back! The best friend I could have asked for!

More to come,

Ruby the not so Wicked Witch